January 31, 2008
When I feel sadness.. and the feeling of not being able to do something I want... I just really want to... fade.. away.....
Somewhere far far away.
I tend to think a lot lately, because I have too much time on my hands.
And I realised, even though I know we're both getting a kick from playing _something make believe the goodbye still feels hard for me to bear. It's like.. I really don't know. It just feels like.. (no hard feelings attached) one close person less to talk to... which is indeed depressing because I've got used to talking to ____, who has been a great friend and confidant. Well this doesn't actually mean goodbye but just less time to talk... and then sooner or later no time at all. Either way it does seem like one to me.
This apart, I've been crying/tearing before I sleep for the past few days and I've absolutely no idea of it's cause. It just seems that I do so for the sake of it, but even so, why don't I feel better after that?
What's wrong with me?
-nIx- @ [[1:16 AM]]
When I feel sadness.. and the feeling of not being able to do something I want... I just really want to... fade.. away.....
Somewhere far far away.
I tend to think a lot lately, because I have too much time on my hands.
And I realised, even though I know we're both getting a kick from playing _something make believe the goodbye still feels hard for me to bear. It's like.. I really don't know. It just feels like.. (no hard feelings attached) one close person less to talk to... which is indeed depressing because I've got used to talking to ____, who has been a great friend and confidant. Well this doesn't actually mean goodbye but just less time to talk... and then sooner or later no time at all. Either way it does seem like one to me.
This apart, I've been crying/tearing before I sleep for the past few days and I've absolutely no idea of it's cause. It just seems that I do so for the sake of it, but even so, why don't I feel better after that?
What's wrong with me?
-nIx- @ [[1:16 AM]]
